Awwwwwwwwww no, B-day 1

Well, went out to meet my friend Abbi and co, fortunately not as drunk as I thought I might be hence still typing this.  Looking forward to at least 5 hours sleep now till work tomorrow.

Been thinking all day about the london procedure thing again, I mean, if I were to go for it then who would need to know? Apart from the fact that things were where they once were'nt of course but apart from that, the shape isnt THAT biga thing is it?  If it were a bit too far the desired way then would that not be a similar problem to if it were too far to the original and I crossed over?  I cant help looking at others now and thinking, I am sure that apart from the "golden rule" which are a minority, everyones are the same or extremely close so it should not be THAT much of a giveaway unless I back it up with further clues, so, if I really think I cannot progress then it isnt gonna be that tricky too continue even with the revised pattern.

I hate thinking, it appears to be my curse more than my other issues. Bugger bugger

I think I have eaten too much and drunk too much too late.

Was weird hearing how the others used to 'see' me, having comparisons made to how I was some 10 to 5 years ago.  Like listening to tales of someone else.  I know that there is artistic licience in there but c'mon,do I really act that different?  One of her friends boyfriends kept giving me funny looks at times, might be my paranoia.  Not bothered, just intrigued really, wondered what he made of what was being said with regards to the histrionics compared to the current embodiment of me.

Still no paper work from London.

Going to bed now, feel so heavy and tired. 

X

(just remembered, nearly cried several times at lunch, reading about Rosseau and isolationist stuff.)