Godzilla

Hi,

Well, been thinking loads about yesterday in London today.  Thoughts of thinking just go for it, doubts of what is currently there, carelessness of what others might think, mindful of what they might, yardie yardie yar.

Remembered the other guy yesterday also mentioned I have a beautiful neck, serious selling going on there!

Work went fairly quick today as I tried to just get on with being there.  Gonna need to if I am to stay to gimme time to have the work done.  Fortunately, and oddly a bit alarming, when I got home today a job place contacted me regarding a post that I had applied for in the Greenwich area.  If I get interviews there then its gonna make me have to jump into a decision I think, although I still have the issue of the 4 months plus to get recovery going. I am being a bit silly I think really.  If I put into context a fat person wanting to be thin or thinner, or a thin person being tubbier, or a grey haired person dying their hair etc then to make a difference to myself should be no more funny or vain than them doing something themselves to improve their wellbeing.

Well, that’s how I feel in my more assertive moments.

Over heard comments today at work where I am sure I was being referenced as "The Monster".  Jerks, their fault for being so incompetent in their management.  They serially need someone to be the bad egg and, after a long time, I am probbie the worst, most reactive person left as the others have all managed to escape.  I wont bore my blog with them as they are a nothing to me really, unworthy of my contempt.   I just wanted to mention it more so for me to make a point of record for my potential future legal benefit.

I couldn’t sleep for ages last night, spent hours trying to get to sleep so I am not going to be long doing this.(I hope!)

Wanna get my hair done, feels so dry in places. Damn buggerin bugger!  Gonna be weird having my counselling this week.  One, its on a Weds for a change and Two, looks like I am gonna have a subject to start with for a change!

I think I need to throw the suggestion of this op to peeps out there to gauge feedback, like my mum or maybe Abbi.  I think once it hits a 'real' person I will be a bit less concerned with going ahead with it.

Ah well, will hopefully fall to sleep to James Whale now, already an hour later than I wanted to go to bed so just wanted to make this brief.

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