Simpsons

I saw no2 last night for first time since Abbis birthday celebs a couple of weeks back which was nice. She hasnt been seeing much of me cause of doing her flat but i feel thats a bit if a weak excuse, however, not really in my control and more likly influenced by the presence of her BF.

I really wanted to be held and comforted but it seemed it would never happen, a feeling in fact of distance between us at the end when i probbie loitered a bit too close as she was talking as she stepped back a bit. Maybe i am just imagining it, wish i could turn my thoughts off at times and live in nievity.

Anyway, watching Simpsons tonight at dinner time cause me to become very upset towards the end. The episode was about Marge and Homer having been together for so long and how they suited eachother and at one brief moment my thoughts centered on No2 and outta nowhere i just started bawling and couldnt eat, affecting me deeply. It is almost laughable when thinking it was the Simpsons but it is was an emotional vehicle and depictory so that gives it more credibility. I was also thinking on the part of the episode where Lisa gives the boy a card with "I choo choo choose you as my valentine". Its the kind of situation or silliness that No2 and i would have had.