Another Wow

Leah, my Friend of last 3 years plus came round last night, a major time for me as I always resisted and tried to keep both side of my lives apart, but, somehow whilst speaking with her on Monday after leaving the clinic I said yes to her coming down as she would be in the area and it was cool.  Annoying that she had work following day and lived some 2 hours drive away but we chatted loads, got pizza delivered and it was real cool.  The mad moo also wanted to see my old band stuff so I obliged!  I felt a right scruff ball as I had only just chucked some clothes on, pretty much the same I wore to London day before as they were all loose fitting.  I also still hadn't looked at the new hair, too afraid as it felt so different and what I imagined to be obvious to anyone who doesn’t know me.  Still, after she left and I fell asleep again on the settee I awoke at some early hour and so ventured to the mirror and it wasn’t anywhere near as bad as I thought it was!

Ok, its very very different in the restored places but in the new I think its bearable, nothing I feel overly worried about certainly, my only 'concern' is how peeps will react that first time of knowing but there ya go, gonna go nowhere if that alone stops me doing anything.

Leah also asked, or invited me rather, to go out with her in Oxford New Years eve with her and her sister, friend and husband. Another major wow!! I really want to, would be real weird tho to be referenced as Nat all the time and to be introduced and only be known that way.  Would also be new to be somewhere new.  I think I will make sure I do it, should be good for me too.  Would be a way to start the new year!

I also had my first TMA grade back for this term, and for me it’s a whopping 77! My highest so far! What is going on? All seems some kind of madness to be goodstuff, means I must be being set up for a mighty fall somewhere soon!.

I must get this second TMA done now, its all on Napoleon and I have rread so much about him of late you would think I would find it easy. Pah, I intended to start it at 7pm last night after I got up.  Its now 5.45am and I have only got upstairs after writing some mails and entries! Ah well, gonna be another late one I feel!

Nat.xx