Musings

Its like, duuuuuur, an online diary full of thoughts and reflections based on my rather peculiar dysphoric life. Mmmm, all relativity i guess, to be 'odd' or 'peculiar' is to be 'special' and 'interesting', that suits me a whole lot better!

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Tesco to go go

Ha, weird day!

First off, my friend Leah met my other friend No2 for the first time and was cool, they both commented on how I should have worn my new coat so that was a kinda joint gang up on me which was cool, a bonding thing!

When we popped into the nearby Tesco as No2 was doing her shopping I bought some tops too, whilst also feeling a bit uncomfortable for Leah as it was probbie a bit weird for her so I tried to keep things going. When I disappeared off up an aisel bymyself to get something I hastiliy made my way back to where they both where and, whilst passing a women and junior daughter I heard the mother say to get out of the ladies way, (me!! Heh!!). Thinking that was kinda cool and funny we joined the queue for the checkout and No2 went first.

When it was my turn I declined the offer of help in packing and threw my bits into the variuous bags whilst talking with No2 and lil baby. When I handed my card over at the end to pay, the cashier asked if I had a loyalty card and I said no and then I started to type in my pin number. It was at this point that she asked if I had anyone with me? I looked at the other two and then said …"er, whats the problem?", thinking maybe my card had been declined for some weird reason.

She then said, "well, the card has Mr on it and was I alone?"

Inside I just died, I couldn’t believe it! Wow! I didn’t wanna make her feel bad or anything so I said something like "er, no that’s ok, that’s me" and she was real kinda flustered at that point and reprocessed the transaction. It was so cool as, even though the other two didn’t hear what was said, they both knew I was talking cause of a problem, of course, I told em both as soon as we were outside.

I should be picking up my new medication tomorrow and am looking forward to that, really wanna get things movin faster. Its cool things like that happening, its so affirming that, although I cant see the changes so much, and to a degree neither do those immediately around me due to them having a fixed frame of reference for someone like me, its very evident that strangers do see me very differantly. I just cant wait until the new hair grows out and have never wanted so many months to go so fast! (bad innit, wishing ones times away)

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