Tonight, Thurs

Hi me,

Well, I was out with Abbi tonight.  We were gonna eat out but the youngest was a bit ill, well, I never actually saw her all night I was there so it was that kinda ill.  Of course, this meant that we didn’t/couldn’t go out so we ate in instead and had the food delivered, of the indian variety, yum!

We were talking over a bottle of wine, of which went to my head really quite quick, dangerous really as it makes me wanna say all things and we moved to the topic of my time with No2.  Its weird as Abbi referred back to how No2 and I used to have separate bedrooms even as far back as when we first got our first flat together in early '95 and she used to stay over with us.  I always remembered this but it still hurts for someone else to remind me of it, stings really as things were so not the regular boy+girl even then, I just couldn’t see it and No2 either didn’t or wouldn’t.  Really sad actually.  Makes me feel like bawling even thinking about it and the conversation we had even now.

Gonna stop actually as I don’t wanna cry, not good to do that as it wouldn’t change anything.  I guess it’s a case of if Abbie knew what No2 knew then this conversation may not have occurred.

Buggerin suck-a-tash, food for thought