Toooooos-deeeeee

EEEEEEeeeee yew!!!! Hangover mornin'!

Leah and I drank loads wine last night and come morning I didn’t feel too good. She ended up leaving late for work cause she wanted more sleep and once she left at about 9am I went back to bed for a while, try and sleep it off. I couldn’t sleep and eventually nodded off after 11 but prior to this I had to visit the divine basin for business. Urgh, I hate that!!

I woke up again about 1pm and thought I had to go see my mum and get my meds and a few other things so I visited mum first. I dropped off some things she had sold on Ebay and we talked for a bit, seems she is a bit upset about the boxing day thing which I kinda felt bad about but, why should i? I said that what we will do next year if she wants to try again is to do it properly, I'll help and make salad a real salad, organise things, be authorative to the ones that need it stuff like that, she seemed to like that idea as she had the right thoughts just unable to do anything to make it happen.

I then left there and went to Sainsbury to get my prescription and then went home, I didn’t feel good for much else at that point. Just prior to going to mums I had a call from Abbi asking if I wanted to do Chinese later and I said yeah, hoping that I would have perked up by then of course. I spent a while reading the enclosed leaflet for the androcur and, quite frankly, it has been scaring me for its various sideffects, however, I also want as much chance of success with what I am doing as possible so, pop the first one went. That day I day I had gone without my Spiro in case they conflicted a bit so I was kinda worried that the old testosterone may be rising. This is where it gets horrible mentally. I started thinking I felt a bit dopey later and thought oh wow, this is strong stuff.

I didn’t drink much when at the restaurant cause I was minful about how much I had had just the night before and also cause I had only taken the pill not long before hand. It’s a choker cause this mind game stuff can cause all kinds of doubting.

Gonna have to start thinking properly about mood swings or any other sideffect kinda things now, ooooo paranoia