Back to work again

Hi,

Friday has shot round once more!  I went shopping with No2 yesterday which was really good, I bought some more things but when we went into Debenhams we both saw loadsa things we liked all in the cheapie sales.  This bought up the subject of skirts from No2 who asked if I would wear em? I replied that yeah, I certainly think that I will but I know that could be different come the time what I wear is of no concern cause of others.  She then said that her and Abbi will probbie be jealous (pointing to various tops) saying that cor, youd be able to wear that kinda thing cause my size and that felt good.  I was glad she had asked about skirts as, having already covered the makeup subject then this was the last one.  She then laughed about my legs as it was an on-going thing between us cause she thinks that they are real girly, heh!

No2 said she has seen loadsa things now that she would like to buy me whereas in the past she struggled for pressies, I really like this openess.

I am getting increasingly frustrated by holding myself back cause of 'other people', in that, some of the stuff I have been buying I then become afraid to be seen wearing or whatever when really, in order to move on I should simply not care or concern myself with.  This inturn of course makes me feel like just telling my ma and probbie bro.  Its hard to see how nothing has been asked of me as yet, with people gendering me as female increasingly it astounds me how people I do know say nothing.  Doesn’t make sense.

I called Dr Reid/Curtis today to speak about the return of Dracula as it still isnt fully resolved and is tad frustrating me.  The lady that answered talked to me a bit about the androcur after I explained why I was calling and she promised to give me a call on Monday after she had spoken with Dr Curtis about it.  She mentioned how it wasn’t a usual 100mg dose being only 50mg and I explained my concerns, certainly as it worked for her after a week! I am nearly 2 weeks in so far and its still trying, I am worried of going backwards and losing the gains I had made from the Spiro.

Booked my time off for the days shifts soon, or a bit of them, not looking forward to going back actually.  I also booked my time off for various World Cup games, hope the stupid bitch approves em and not leave it for months and months, that'll annoy me.

New hairs still coming though in the new areas which is well cool although, I am concerned with how it seems I am losing loadsa the small lil hairs recently in other areas.  Having changed meds I cant help thinking its summin to do with that, also, the hairs are all similar lengths so defo seem time related.  Well annoying as it screws my head up.  Hope tomorrow there is an improvement with Dracula.

First night working with the new guy tonight, he seems ok althought I think he was a tad uncertain of me when he walked in the very first time heh!