Invisible

Well, awoke about 8ish but I didn’t wanna get up. I felt a feeling 'down there' which was a weird feeling, like it wanted to do something although it didn’t. Wonder if it’s the new medication?

Feels weird now not taking something twice a day after so long. I almost cant wait for tea time so I can know I have popped another anti testosterone thing down my throat.

Forgot to say about yesterday, someone knocked on my door about 7.30am but I didn’t bother to answer it, not that freakin early! Well, a similar time today that happened too. No card gets left so I don’t think it’s a delivery item although I am awaiting some books from Amazon.

I text No2 to see if she wanted to watch a film tonight and she said that she would let me know as the babies father is going round there soon and she didn’t know when he was going to leave. Hmmm, usually its about an hour or so and the baby is also in bed between 8 and 9 so why no message despite my followup asking what was going on?! I SO HATE being ignored as if I have done something wrong.