Sequels, prequels and me-quels

Mmmm now, where have i been?   Well, reading the last post from 2006 reminds me how far i have gone in the last 2 years plus.  Quite funny now but back then i was chirlishly seeking physical affirmation from people such as shop staff and the like, now though i dont need to do that.  Well ok, sometimes i might leave the person guessing on the phone before i either help them out or they guess correctly but by and large i just get on with stuff.  Yup, since the last post i started working for a fabby local government service (albeit still not fully employed), managed to do the whole formal 'this is me' stuff and come out the other side, end my counselling, receive an awfully stupid parting from my best friend for reasons i do not fully know or pretend to understand, swapped my gender 'rubbish' for bog normal debt crap for which i am currently in the throes of and am generally a bit unsettled and teapot right now.  Shall explain further as i go on.

 

Unsure how to articulate past stuff as the intensities of emotions are diminished and not as if written at the time, together with needing to write about current stuff so that i may 'breathe' adequately in the present.

 

This evening i have spent it writing letters number 3 to my creditors requesting their acceptance to my proposals for a full and final.  Has been dragging on a bit and sort of wish it would pass but then i fear my money being gone and credit cards no longer being an option to me as i have surrendered them. Ah well, the Western world is collapsing under it all right now and i try not to worry but keyword is try.  Because i have to try means i am aware which means i do worry unfortunately.

 

Ah well, shall defo write more tomorrow when i can dedicate more time, am too tired now as been writing elsewhere all evening.

 

Nighties.

 

xx